motivation...

Where can I find some??? I just can't get motivated to do anything these days... I finally forced myself to do some grocery shopping this afternoon -- after I found Kam down here making scrambled eggs for the family for breakfast (with only a handful of eggs)! He is so amazing and takes after John in so many ways. He is a problem solver. I wish I could be a problem solver. Then I could solve my "motivation" problem right now!

I just feel exhausted all day, every day. Bedtime has crept up to 9pm. But it's not helping. Whether I've had four hours or nine, I feel the same. I have been seeing a wonderful Nephrologist and he's taking great care of me -- he says that I'm pretty darn healthy. My kidneys are fine, just spilling a little more protein than he's comfortable with, so I'm taking Lisinopril. It's also supposed to help with my high blood pressure. I'm just frustrated with this exhaustion. I need to seek out a Rheumatologist next week. Maybe he can help...

On a brighter note: what a great weekend! Conference is always fabulous, and what an added bonus this year with Easter! We are going to the Easter Pageant at the temple tonight. It may be pretty crowded as it's the last night, but after going last year with the YW, I decided it's a must for the whole family!

We've had some changes lately, with a few more to come :)
* Kameron has glasses (pics to come soon)
* Kaisha is turning SIXTEEN!!!
* We're on the move again!

First, let's reflect on Kaisha! I just cannot believe that in 11 days I will be the Mother of a 16-year-old! How is this even possible? When did I press a "fast-forward" button? She is so grown up. She's already had a boyfriend, and although back on the "market" now, she's ready for a new one!!! We're pretty sure he's waiting until she's of official dating age! Kaish has made it through some very tough struggles recently which has shown how mature and strong she is. I love her so much! She is an amazing daughter -- and friend! Wow -- sixteen :)

Now, moving! We have been in this small rental for nearly a year. We adore our landlords -- they are like guardian angels -- and had not planned on moving anytime soon! But ---- and there's a BIG but! The neighbors renting next door have two small dogs. Need I say more!! For nearly a year -- every day -- all day long -- we have to sit here and listen to these crazy dogs bark and cry. It has been excruciating! We have approached them which only made things worse. We have received hate mail from neighbors thinking we have the yippy dogs. We have tried to be patient and work with our landlords to remedy the situation. They, on our behalf, have contacted the HOA, the owner of the home, the police dept., and then the County Prosecutors office. Right now they have an active case against the owner and the renters. It has been a roller coaster ride! All because of two little dogs. This has caused our family such extreme stress. Poor Kaisha her window is right next to these barking dogs. So, hence the search for a new home. What a pain!! I mean, I love moving! Call me crazy, but I do! But now I'm working full-time. We're going to stay in this area. We love our ward. We love the kids schools. Kam will be in middle school this fall with Kerianne, so we don't want to change them. Kennedi may have to switch (again!) but she's okay with that. So, the search begins...

Well, after getting some of that off my chest, I'm feeling a little better! Life is moving forward so quickly. I feel like I can't keep up! I need to remind myself to take it one day at a time -- and treasure what is most important :-)